I am in quite the predicament. I just got a job offer in Tulsa for 250k/yr. But I am in love with a man in Boulder who will not move. I am so torn. I need love. I never have had true love. My life has been long and difficult for the past 22 years.
My love has brought me a breadth of fresh air. I love him with all my heart. I need him. I long for him every day. I want to marry him and be with him for the rest of my life. I want to have a child or two with him and grow a happy loving family. I will be the bread winner. If we have kids, will he be a stay at home dad? If I do that the income will plummet and our life style will be out the door. Ya know I am thinking too much ahead. we aren't even married. when should I talk about such things? I knew the moment I met him I wanted to be with him forever. Does he feel the same? Sometimes I feel like he is dating me just to have someone to love. I dont know if he truely loves me for me. I ask and he says he does but his past patterns say otherwise. He lives with his ex girlfriend. I feel so uncomfortable with it. idk....
What to do? take the 1/4mill/yr and a career or take the love? love is so hard to come by. its the first time ive ever experienced this. I cannot live without.
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